I just got back from Ingmar and Emily’s baby shower/party. I’m very excited for them. It’s like the beginning of a new chapter in their life. I was more or less the only one who did not know anyone there (well… apart from Emily & Ingmar), but it sure was fun to meet new people! I have to admit that seeing kids there has made me think about my past and future. They reminded me of the times when I was a kid… always having fun with nothing to worry about. They also made me realize that one day, I will have a family.. and kids of my own. It makes me wonder whether I would be able to be a good parent or not. I’ve always been a little uncomfortable around young kids. I love them (well.. most of the time, when they don’t cry! ), but I sometimes get too scared to play with them for fear of *breaking* them. They are so small and they look so fragile! It would break my heart if I drop them and hurt them…

Wondering where/what I will be 5 years from now…