It’s been almost exactly 5 months since I last wrote into this blog. Well, this entry exists purely as a reminder for me at this juncture in life. Hopefully years from now, this entry will be a reminiscence of whatever is left of a short-lived fantasy; a wonderful one, yet impossible for some fatuous and absurd reasons beyond my conception.

It is not often that we meet someone who we can almost always feel some connections; someone whom even as we become more acquainted, we would still feel as if there are mystery left to be found and that there is something about that person that keeps piquing our curiosity. As we are drawn closer and closer to that somebody, we start to wonder what this relationship could become and where we could end up. It is perhaps in our nature to be curious, and we sometimes do things that may seem stupid and illogical just to satisfy the curiosity. But are those things we do really stupid or illogical if they allow us to eliminate doubts? At the very least, we would not have to guess where things would take us and what could have been or what could have become of us. To have the privilege of getting to experience that taken away is the same as having our eyes blinded. Not only is it hurtful, but it is also insensitive and outright cruel…

As a result, these questions will be left unanswered. Years into the future, I will be looking back on today and would still have those same questions lingering in my mind. It will take time, but eventually I will be alright. I will always have those doubts, and I will be wondering of what could have become…

I’m glad that I have half a gallon of my favorite ice cream in the freezer waiting for me… O’ Bittersweet Mint, you are my BFF…