I just thought I would post something while waiting for this bloody simulation to run. Here’s an excerpt from the song “Art of Life” by the band X Japan.

Close my eyes
Rose breathes I can hear
All love and sadness melt in my heart
Dry my tears
Wipe my bloody face
I wanna feel me living my life
outside my mind

Dreams can make me mad
I can’t leave my dream
I can’t stop myself
Don’t know what I am
What lies are truth?
What truths are lies?

I believe in the madness called “Now”
Time goes flowing, breaking my heart
Wanna live
Can’t let my heart kill myself
Still I haven’t found what I’m looking for
Art of life
I try to stop myself
But my heart goes to destroy the truth
Tell me why
I want the meaning of my life
Do I try to live? Do I try to love?

Art of life
An Eternal Bleeding heart
You never wanna breathe your last
Wanna live
Can’t let my heart kill myself
Still I’m feeling for
A Rose is breathing love
in my life

Alrighty.. back to debugging this stupid code >.<

It’s been almost exactly 5 months since I last wrote into this blog. Well, this entry exists purely as a reminder for me at this juncture in life. Hopefully years from now, this entry will be a reminiscence of whatever is left of a short-lived fantasy; a wonderful one, yet impossible for some fatuous and absurd reasons beyond my conception.

It is not often that we meet someone who we can almost always feel some connections; someone whom even as we become more acquainted, we would still feel as if there are mystery left to be found and that there is something about that person that keeps piquing our curiosity. As we are drawn closer and closer to that somebody, we start to wonder what this relationship could become and where we could end up. It is perhaps in our nature to be curious, and we sometimes do things that may seem stupid and illogical just to satisfy the curiosity. But are those things we do really stupid or illogical if they allow us to eliminate doubts? At the very least, we would not have to guess where things would take us and what could have been or what could have become of us. To have the privilege of getting to experience that taken away is the same as having our eyes blinded. Not only is it hurtful, but it is also insensitive and outright cruel…

As a result, these questions will be left unanswered. Years into the future, I will be looking back on today and would still have those same questions lingering in my mind. It will take time, but eventually I will be alright. I will always have those doubts, and I will be wondering of what could have become…

I’m glad that I have half a gallon of my favorite ice cream in the freezer waiting for me… O’ Bittersweet Mint, you are my BFF…

Long story short (pun intended), I had my hair cut (#4 clipper all the way!). Almost everyone asked me why, but I don’t really have an answer to that (my answers mostly went “ummmm /shrug just because?.. /shrug”). I guess I felt like having them cut. I was going to do that a while back, but I had a wedding to go to. Anyway, if I could charge a dollar for every person who stopped by my office to see my new haircut, I would have been rich by now (well.. maybe not really because the stock market is really killing me right now).

It was fun to walk around the company and see people’s reactions. As a matter of fact, many people did not recognize me. The last time I did this was a couple of years ago. The guy who shared the office with me did not recognize it was me for half a day…

If you wonder why, then take a look at these photos…

P.S. This haircut is sponsored in part by Mick & Pla

/gasps

I almost cried… It’s these things that keeps me going.. almost there…

1. Denial
2. Anger
3. Bargaining
4. Depression
5. Acceptance

I think I’m somewhere between (1) and (2).. thanks to stupid politicians. I hope they burn in hell… /cry

I’m just testing blogging from iPhone. It’s not too bad at all. Anyhoo, I hosted a dinner at my place last night. It went pretty well if I nectlect the fact that I almost burn my place down. Anyway, it appeared that everyone liked the food and they were enjoying the time, which was all that really matters. I wish that I had thought about the dessert a little earlier. I made mangoes with sticky rice in coconut milk. The sticky rice was good but the mangoes were a little too unriped for my liking. They would have been great if they were for today instead. O well.. Maybe next time

The menu (just to tease your saliva glands):
Gai (chicken) satay with peanut sauce (homemade of course)
Beef steak
Kra por pla (fish stomach soup)
Kowniew mamuang (mangoes with sticky rice in coconut milk)

Mick and pla also brought gai yaang (thai grilled chicken). They were great as well. Personally I liked the soup the best. I think it tastes pretty close to a decent sharkfin soup. All in all, it was fun.. I should do this more often..

I don’t really have much to say here. It’s been a while (way too long) since I took this space down. Well, here I am again.. blabbering about nothing. I’m thinking about updating the layout, but we will see if this will happen or not. Check back often to enjoy my usual whines about nothing and everything…

It’s that time of the year again. My hands are shaking and I’m ready to go on a shopping spree. For some reasons, over the past several years I seem to be buying things to indulge myself in during the holiday season… I wonder what I will buy this time. I’m going home this year.. so maybe it won’t be so bad…

Oh.. and happy thanksgiving to all =D